因为你不爱我

我很伤心，身边没有一个人可以了解我。。。真的，没一个。。。
一直以来我认为有些东西不用说出口，至少经过那么多次都学会看人脸色，看清楚人家是否会真的高兴或假的高兴。。。真的不介意还是假的不介意。。。

有时候我在等，等时间到了什么东西都明朗了。。。可是我现在开始不知道是否值不值得。。。
漫长的日子还需等待，我开始无力招架。。。我不想数月以来就前功尽弃。。。
为什么每次都要这样对我？
你总说我什么都不懂，我才说你是什么都不懂的那位！
既然你说小事为何你就不能让我？原因很简单，因为。。。你不爱我。。。

新年快乐 V.S 不可以离开我的身边超过 5 天！

新年快乐，先祝大家兔年行大运，事事顺利 ^^
刚刚迈入了初三，我又睡不着了。。。第 4 天了，bb 回家乡 4 天了，我们也没见面 4 天了。。。回想起去年，bb 也只不过回乡 4 天，我们也只不过 4 天没见。不过这次他回 5 天！足足 5 天！It just like 5 days of working day ! So long ! You know ?
现在回想起，我去年在他回乡的每一天都在写部落等着他回来呢！本来我今年也想每天写的，由于在赶着做“某些东西”所以才没空写。

自从 2008 年 12 月的最后 2 个星期他做 part time 我们没见之外，这是我们最久没见的记录了。。。
我知道很可笑，为何那时可以忍受 2 个星期没见，为何现在才 5 天都不能忍？
其实这几天我也问过我自己几次这个问题，为什么会这样？
呵呵。。。我想可能是我越来越粘他，越来越爱他，没见到他是不行的！也可能是那时没那么爱？现在特别爱？哈哈。。。
正如我妈妈形容的，“一日不见如三秋”。呵呵，连我妈妈早就看穿我不能没有他的。。。

昨天，也就是年初二，我们没见面的第 3 天，我一起床就很不高兴。在新年发恶梦也就算了，而且还要等多 2 天才能见到他。老实说，我昨天心里总是楸着楸着的那种 feeling ， 搞到从早到晚都在发脾气。
我知道那个已经是我的 limit 了，再忍下去我会疯掉，所以这几天我都尽量找东西而且慢慢做，希望 5 天能快快结束。
此外，前天我还跟他做了个 deal ，以后无论是什么理由都好，都不可以离开我的身边超过 5 天！
或许 5 天可以对你来说很短，可是对我来说是很长很长，时间过得很慢很慢。。。
因为那种傻傻等自己心爱的人回来和那种楸着楸着的那种 feeling ，真的很难受。。。

我的 21 岁生日

21 岁生日，对每个人来说那是非常有意义的生日。因为那时代表成人的岁数，应该有些难忘的回忆。。。至少我认为是这样的。。。
那天的我由于还在试用期不能请假，所以我决定一做到6点就直接走人。那天我还带了化妆品和更换的裙子到公司，准备一下班就马上更换。

我还记得本来 bb 还问我是否要陪我吃午餐，可是我拒绝了，因为我不想他为了我如此奔波。
他说他来之前会买好礼物和 3D 《TRON》的戏票。
到了大约7点，老板本来还要我改东西，说是明天要的，我知道那一改我一定 9 点多10 点才能回。我不想，可是我说不出口。最终，我还是开口了，我说那天是我的生日。所幸的是，那些东西可以明天改，可是要在 12 点之前改好，我连忙说好。赶紧换了衣服，补个妆就连忙下去了。


Bb 带我去 One Utama 吃笼的传人，那时我期待已久的餐厅。在几年前我的弟弟答应请我吃的咯，请到现在都没请，所幸 bb 这次请我吃，呵呵。。。
那天，我们除了各自叫面来吃还叫了3 笼点心来吃。整体的味道还可以，点心还算还不错。

以下是冬瓜龙眼海底椰，味道还不错，清凉解暑。。。


Bb 点的北京炸酱面，味道据说还可以。


我点的素什锦炒拉面，味道也是以还可以来形容。


这是我点的香菇素菜包，两个都给我吃了，哈哈。。。因为 bb 说他不想吃嘛，不过味道也不怎么样，早知道不要点这个。。。


这个葱油烧饼也是我点的，bb 说热热吃才好吃，可是等我吃完面都变冷冷了。可能是冷了吧，所以味道就变的不怎么好吃。奇怪，怎么我点的就是不怎么好吃呢？



这是 bb 点的奶黄流沙包，味道不错！为什么 bb 点的东西总是那么有品位，那么好吃呢？


假的兵马俑。。。


好有奢华的 feel 。。。


总体的室内设计还不错。。。



蛮喜欢笼的传人的那片镜子，可惜我们的座位就是拍不完那 4 个字。。。



那天，帐单来时我们都吓到一跳！竟然要 RM73.10 ！


随后我们就去看《TRON》，吃饭时我害怕等下看到太夜走去停车场会很恐怖，也怕戏院没什么人看戏。因为我很少那么夜还在看戏才回，上次看《TWLIGHT》时已经领教过了。
体贴的 bb 见状，问我是否要取消去看戏？他说他不介意浪费那个戏票钱。那时我考虑后决定跟 bb 去看，反正都买了，况且又他陪着我，怕什么？

所幸戏院也有不少人，所以我才没那么怕。看完戏后都 11 点多了，我的生日就要这样那么的结束了。。。
Bb 那天为我花了不少钱，我知道他很心痛。。。
谢啦， bb 第一次你为我花那么多钱。

老实说，到现在我还是在想为什么那天我得做工？害到连吃饭都赶，连生日的气氛都没有。。。好无奈哦今年的生日。。。
我怎么想还是觉得很不值得，所以我决定以后我的生日一定要请假，好好 enjoy 那种气氛。。。要不然我就会像现在这样过了一个月还是在想着很不值得。。。

简单幸福的一天

8/1/2011，那天我当值做半天。下班后，就半哄半强迫bb亲手煮快熟面给我吃。

上个月我本来有机会吃到的，不料错过良机。所以这次无论如何我都要吃到他第三次亲手煮的快熟面！

虽说是快熟面，可是幸福的味道可是百分百哦！呵呵。。。

加上那天我们相处得很愉快所以幸福味道增至百分之两百哦~！哈哈。。。

由于1/1/2011那天，弟弟请我和妈妈吃东西，所以这次妈妈也要我拿到工资后请回他们吃东西。

那晚，我也顺便带bb一起去（之前讲好的）。于是，我们就在Aman Suria的醉月楼茶餐厅吃福建炒米粉和咯面。

吃完后，大家都直呼很饱。我一看，大家 的小肚肚都出来了！见状，我突然好开心哦~！

突然觉得自己在那天好幸福哦~虽然所发生的事都看起来很平凡，很不起眼。可是对我来说幸福其实可以很简单，很触动人心。。。

不知道是不是过多两天就是我生日了所以好事连连？还是我就快生日了，心情特别好？

我不知道，可能两者都有吧？！

希望我每天都能这样幸福开心吧 ^ ^

突然好期待我的生日哦~ 呵呵~

IT'S NOT OVER

In the middle of the night, I can’t fall sleep again… Finally I decide listen music to calm my soul…

After an hour I found out a playlist that he use to send to me by his phone…

Accidently a song went to my ear, a song that represents our mood during those 2 days… I don’t know will that be his dark days or not but those days is my dark days for sure…

Every single word in this song totally takes away my soul right now… Because the lyrics was so true, so damn true… I feel lucky those days I didn’t listen this song, or else I think I will cry until faint…

It sings by DAUGHTRY which name IT’S NOT OVER…

I was blown away.
What could I say?
It all seemed to make sense.
You've taken away everything,
And I can't deal with that.
I try to see the good in life,
But good things in life are hard to find.
We'll blow it away, blow it away.
Can we make this something good?
Well, I'll try to do it right this time around.

Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over.
'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

Taken all I could take,
And I cannot wait.
We're wasting too much time
Being strong, holding on.
Can't let it bring us down.
My life with you means everything,
So I won't give up that easily.
I'll blow it away, blow it away.
Can we make this something good?
'Cause it's all misunderstood.
Well, I'll try to do it right this time around.

Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over.
'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

We can't let this get away.
Let it out, let it out.
Don't get caught up in yourself.
Let it out.

Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over.
'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

Let's start over.
It's not over, yeah...
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

My Treasure Box

When talk about treasure box , I believe what cross on everyone mind is a big box full of lots of gold , diamonds , pearls , maybe pride ship with a map ? Or Aladdin magic lamp ? Perhaps ?

Well , it wasn’t a secret , I have a treasure box too ! Yes ! I have a treasure box too !!!

Don’t believe ? Keep reading then you will know why I say that !

My treasure box doesn’t big , but is big enough to put the things I want . Although sometimes I want this one , that one , but this time I only want 2 things in my treasure box , which is my family and him …

They are priceless , can’t use money to value they price , because they are NOT FOR SALE !!! They just like a big compass in my life , give me the direction show me the right way to go … I thanks them a lots , seriously I mean it ! But I want specially thanks him walk into my life , my life totally change since I meet him . Words can’t describe how thankful I am , only god knows …

What I learn from him not only how to love a person , but is how to make your partner feel the joy of the life and the joy when he with you . He show me how beautiful the world is , although I can’t see the place which thousand miles from here … Thinking of my little treasure again … Guessing he is sleeping at his small little cute bed … I guess he and my family is the treasure that makes me everyday think of it , care of it and love of it …

Everyone also have a treasure box in their heart , it can be people , pets , work , dreams , money and many more … If you still looking for something to be your treasure that can’t share your story , can’t accompany you to walk through your life , why don’t you choose a person that can you share everything with it ? Believe your heart , appreciate the treasure box that inside your heart , because you will find the special thing inside there and the joy that they bring …

Catch up the plan…

November is getting over…

After finish my diploma show case, I take less than a week to find a part time job. Then I work a month to earn money… What else next ?

Well…since September 19 until now I was so free and holiday-ing. But trust me, this is out of my plan…

My original plan : September – work, October – holiday, November – work…

But now : September – work, October – holiday, November – holiday while starting find job…

Gosh, no way!!! I should find job as soon as possible, I have to catch up the plan!!!

Honestly, I was afraid… because I don’t think I know much enough at this level, if no one hire me then really OMG… ( I think I will say that too if I continue my degree )

God bless please…

Wish me good luck please…