I Broke My Own Promise

I say before , I make a wish before , I thought I can ...
But I can't ...
Still remember the last day of 2009 , I told myself , 2010 I will treat myself more better then 2009 ...
But I can't ...
It just the beginning of the 2010 year , you see what i done ???
I can't make it ...
A promise that I make to myself , already broke ...
How sad ...

Long long days to go ...
Will 2010 is my unhappy year ?
I don't know ....
I don't dare to think , I don't want to think , I know I'm too weak for that ...
Suddenly want some one to comfort me and hug me tight and say :
Every thing will be fine , you're not alone , I'm here with you ...