IT'S NOT OVER

In the middle of the night, I can’t fall sleep again… Finally I decide listen music to calm my soul…

After an hour I found out a playlist that he use to send to me by his phone…

Accidently a song went to my ear, a song that represents our mood during those 2 days… I don’t know will that be his dark days or not but those days is my dark days for sure…

Every single word in this song totally takes away my soul right now… Because the lyrics was so true, so damn true… I feel lucky those days I didn’t listen this song, or else I think I will cry until faint…

It sings by DAUGHTRY which name IT’S NOT OVER…

I was blown away.
What could I say?
It all seemed to make sense.
You've taken away everything,
And I can't deal with that.
I try to see the good in life,
But good things in life are hard to find.
We'll blow it away, blow it away.
Can we make this something good?
Well, I'll try to do it right this time around.

Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over.
'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

Taken all I could take,
And I cannot wait.
We're wasting too much time
Being strong, holding on.
Can't let it bring us down.
My life with you means everything,
So I won't give up that easily.
I'll blow it away, blow it away.
Can we make this something good?
'Cause it's all misunderstood.
Well, I'll try to do it right this time around.

Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over.
'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

We can't let this get away.
Let it out, let it out.
Don't get caught up in yourself.
Let it out.

Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over.
'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

Let's start over.
It's not over, yeah...
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

My Treasure Box

When talk about treasure box , I believe what cross on everyone mind is a big box full of lots of gold , diamonds , pearls , maybe pride ship with a map ? Or Aladdin magic lamp ? Perhaps ?

Well , it wasn’t a secret , I have a treasure box too ! Yes ! I have a treasure box too !!!

Don’t believe ? Keep reading then you will know why I say that !

My treasure box doesn’t big , but is big enough to put the things I want . Although sometimes I want this one , that one , but this time I only want 2 things in my treasure box , which is my family and him …

They are priceless , can’t use money to value they price , because they are NOT FOR SALE !!! They just like a big compass in my life , give me the direction show me the right way to go … I thanks them a lots , seriously I mean it ! But I want specially thanks him walk into my life , my life totally change since I meet him . Words can’t describe how thankful I am , only god knows …

What I learn from him not only how to love a person , but is how to make your partner feel the joy of the life and the joy when he with you . He show me how beautiful the world is , although I can’t see the place which thousand miles from here … Thinking of my little treasure again … Guessing he is sleeping at his small little cute bed … I guess he and my family is the treasure that makes me everyday think of it , care of it and love of it …

Everyone also have a treasure box in their heart , it can be people , pets , work , dreams , money and many more … If you still looking for something to be your treasure that can’t share your story , can’t accompany you to walk through your life , why don’t you choose a person that can you share everything with it ? Believe your heart , appreciate the treasure box that inside your heart , because you will find the special thing inside there and the joy that they bring …

Catch up the plan…

November is getting over…

After finish my diploma show case, I take less than a week to find a part time job. Then I work a month to earn money… What else next ?

Well…since September 19 until now I was so free and holiday-ing. But trust me, this is out of my plan…

My original plan : September – work, October – holiday, November – work…

But now : September – work, October – holiday, November – holiday while starting find job…

Gosh, no way!!! I should find job as soon as possible, I have to catch up the plan!!!

Honestly, I was afraid… because I don’t think I know much enough at this level, if no one hire me then really OMG… ( I think I will say that too if I continue my degree )

God bless please…

Wish me good luck please…

2nd Anniversary With Lovely Baby Lee

为了庆祝我和Baby Lee的2nd anniversary我们在2，3个月前就plan好要要去剪头发。所以在22/10/2010（星期五）时，我们一起先去Kepong renew IC（起初他怎么都不肯和我一起renew IC，后来我花了很多口水才能说服他）。当工作人员跟我讨RM10 for renew IC时，我感到惊讶，他也感到惊讶，因为我们都不明白我们只是renew IC又不是弄不见IC，为何还要给钱？后来根据工作人员说过3个星期就可以拿了。

由于时间还早，我们就到One Utama走走，顺便又再去问我以前的supervisor Sunway Pyramid要怎样去？后来她还特地帮我打电话问人，真的很谢谢她呢！之后就直接去Pelangi剪头发了。剪发后，我的形象明显改变，连理发师都问我为何要转变那么大。倒是Baby Lee，剪了头发后的他好像有那么一点点的改变。可是当anniversary见到他时，他的发型一又变回像以前了。

由于2，3个月前讲好我安排早上到4点，然后到晚上是他安排的。到了anniversary那天我们很早就起身了，本来讲好9am来载我的，可是却迟到10分钟。不过因为他是要买面包给我当早餐，所以这次我没怪他啦，呵呵。。。在车上，我们互相帮对方戴上我们的情侣项链，并且答应对方要每天都带着。那刻是那天的幸福开始。。。因为面包干干所以我只吃一块巧克力口味的。后来我们就直接去Taman Bahagia的LRT Station乘搭LRT去Kelana Jaya Bus Station。然后傻傻的我们也算蛮精明的，因为不一会儿我们就找到去Sunway Pyramid的bus了。等了大概10分钟吧，巴士才让乘客上车。可怜的我们，很久都没有乘搭巴士了，也不知道会不会迷路。一坐下来，我第一时间就是看巴士的路线图。虽然很明确的写明，可是巴士所逗留的地点很多是找不到地方牌。我们那时是很紧张的，不过我说不用紧就算是错过了我们就坐德士去吧。不久我们就见到Sunway Pyramid大大的狮子在那儿，Baby Lee就问还不要按铃吗？那刻的我有点呆掉的感觉！不过当有人按铃时，很多人都下车，而我们当然也跟着下车啦。

走了一会儿，我们就去找滑雪场。因为它是我planning for anniversary的一部分。找了很久才找到了，可是那刻Baby Lee犹豫着要不要滑雪。他说或许我们可以玩射箭还是走走，他不介意的。我们惟有在走走看怎样。走了一会儿我觉得肚子饿，所以我们就去找Full House。不过当我们找到时，还没在营业。所以Baby Lee就叫我吃还剩的一块jagung面包，不过我嫌太干所以不想吃。他对我很好，马上带我去买了一杯橙汁给我喝。虽然酸酸的，可是喝在心里甜甜的 ^^

后来我们走了很多遍Full House都见它未开，也走了很多遍可以看到滑雪场的oval商论。Baby Lee说要是吃饱了，就不可以滑雪。可是要是我选滑雪的话那我要等到几久才可以吃东西啊？我很饿叻，可是要是给了钱不玩久一点又很像对不起自己，也太不值得了。所以结论是，去玩射箭好了。反正我俩都没试过，所以也算是在anniversary那天做点特别的东西了。后来终于找到了射箭的地方，不过又是我肚子饿得缘故所以又回去Full House看营业了吗。

11.30am Full House开了，可是Baby Lee说还没饿建议等到12pm。逛逛中，经过一间Foot Spa其中本来要去给鱼吃死皮的护理，可是价钱还贵过去滑雪，所以就打消念头了，改次才去玩吧。 大概11.45am我再也受不了饥饿的煎熬，对Baby Lee说我要现在就去Full House吃lunch。本来他要看menu怕我没东西吃的，可是我跟他说我做research里面有我可以吃的东西。看了menu我可以吃的东西不多，不过我还是很开心地选了韩国面，因为我很久没吃了。而Baby Lee就选了蘑菇意大利面，甜点方面我则叫了6块蛋糕，我选3片，他选3片，茶方面我则叫了薰衣草。岂知我一喝那茶就觉得我在喝我的body scrub，因为我的body scrub也是用薰衣草制成。Baby Lee喝后的表情更夸张，可惜我没拍下来。哈哈。。。后来我吃不完我的面所以就给他吃了。吃完东西后东西后我们便拍照留念。

当我们要去设见长的途中见到有大胃王吃东西比赛，我们就站在oval看。后来久久不见比赛开始我们就打算走人到邻近的店逛。岂知后来听到比赛开始我们又去看，直到有人胜出我们才走人。到了射箭场我们就玩2人份的，有30多个箭可以给我们平分玩。箭射玩了，可是我还玩不过瘾还要再玩。这次由Baby Lee帮我付钱，可是我想玩24个箭的。我知道其实他也想玩的，因为他的表情全部写在脸上了，我知道他是为了给我玩多点而冷落了自己的需要的。而且我们第一次玩他也玩到蛮算厉害了，有很多个箭射中中间，不像我玩得那么差劲。不过我第二次玩的时候也不逊色哦！嘿嘿。。。

逛了一阵子后，时间3.30pm左右，我们就去等巴士了。等了很久巴士都没到后来离4pm还有10分钟Baby Lee说要是巴士再不来我们就坐德士吧，钱他给。我也只好答应。后来我们的巴士到了，坐回LRT Station。本来他说若是时间还早他想带我去KLCC走走的，因为我没去过。不过当我们回到车时都接近4.30pm，所以他就带我去Kota Damansara Sunway Giza看看。因为我没去过，所以很好奇那里。那里的设计像牛车水不过应该就比牛车水小很多吧？（我也没去过牛车水）逛了一阵后也顺便拍几张照片留念。到那时我们一张合照都还没拍所以就在那里拍，我们也挺满意那张照片的。其中有一张是无意拍到我的头给球撞，其实是借位啦，拍了才看到的，呵呵。。。

下一个目的地，Baby Lee带我去One Utama买戏票。本来他想看Red的，后来我说想看The other guy，他就买了9pm的戏票。然后我们就去保龄球场参观坐坐后在6点出我们就去吃东西了。地点是我家附近的Organic Recipe。那里卖的都是有机素食，味道相当不错。不过楼上是住所，当车泊好在basement后我们就走下2楼才到那个店的。其中有一楼很恐怖的，空荡荡没有人而且里面也黑黑的，所以经过那里时我们都会加快脚步。若你会认为那间店会冷清，那你就错了！生意可是好到不得了呢！还可以看到很多reservation呢！由于我第一次来这里当然是由Baby Lee介绍好菜啦~所以就点了饭，豆腐，肉骨茶（这个是我的选择中抽出的）和2个真材实料的椰子水。他真的没介绍错，豆腐真的很好吃，而肉骨茶就太甜，还是One Utama的一心素比较好吃。结帐后我们就去One Utama了，路上他体贴地问是否要放弃去看戏他可以直接送我回家。因为我怕像去年11点多看完Twilight出来时整间One Utama好像没人似的，很恐怖。我说不用，我可以克服。到了One Utama他原本说要泊里面的，可是我坚决要泊外面。后来我们走走后就进戏院了。后来戏院越来越多人我才没那么担心。到了11.15pm他才把我送回家，就这样我们就度过了我们的2nd anniversary。。。

I ❤ YOU , BECAUSE "JUST THE WAY YOU ARE"

Oh his eyes, his eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
His hair, his hair
Falls perfectly without he trying
He's so attractive
And I tell he every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment he
He wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think he don't see what I see
But every time he asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause boy you're amazing
Just the way you are

His lips, his lips
I could kiss them all day if he'd let me
His laugh, his laugh
He hates but I think its so sexy
He's so attractive
And I tell he every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
I didn’t never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same
So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause boy you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Boy you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause boy you're amazing
Just the way you are

I'm imperfect

No one is perfect, so as you and so as I.
I know some times what I request is a bit over, but I'm who I'm.
I don't want to say some thing that wasn't what I want, I don't want do a thing that wasn't what I wish to.
You should know, I'm always who I am when I will you compare to others.
Front of others, I can't 100% say that is me.
But front of you, when i with you, I can say 100% that is me.
A real me, and you're the only one who can see the real of me, even my family also can't compare with you.
Do you know what I mean?
I'm sorry if my imperfect or my request is annoying you, but at the end I got to say you still have to do it.
Because it is a promise...

Promises

Is midnight right now, yes, I still awake…

Still think of something…

Don’t worry, it wasn’t something related with the below article…

With the title, yes, I’m thinking of promises that “eel gneh naek” make with me, it wasn’t what I promised but is what he promised…

Oh god, I can’t count how much is that, but all is on my mind…

Tonight, I have to say, “Oh boy, when you going to prove it to me all the promise that you have done?”

Listening She Believes (In Me) by Ronan Keating… it reminds me how romantic the MV are and how meaningful the lyrics is…

Did “eel gneh naek” receive the message that I show at here?

Haha… I think he did and I expecting something start from this moment…

Don’t you let me down, Mr. “eel gneh naek”, if you really know what I mean…